A tiny drop of my own revenge.

My sweet, but oh-so-dirty little loves,
as promised, I have for you one of my crazy stories. I've never, ever told this one before except to a very few people.


 Well, as some of you who have been with me for a while (& I appreciate and have so much love for yall!) already know a little, or a lot about what I call "my experience." It's a bad one & it's one that I had a hefty 4 year miserable struggle with, but I'm way better with it now. I won't go into deep details, but when I was 15 I was stupid enough to go with a "friend" to a party where I knew no-one. 2 15 year old girls at a party with older men & 2 older women. Never a good idea. Well, you can probably imagine the horror of taking a drink from one of the men.

  I lived in fear for all those years & couldn't stand that the man who destroyed me lived on the same mountain as I do. I also couldn't stand the fact that he was in his late 20's & I only 15! So I felt unsafe. I had seen him only a few times in public after the "bad experience." And once the BF & I were pulling out of my driveway & he was in front of us. We had to follow him all the way down the mountain. The small mountain that the both of us shared.

  I didn't really too much want revenge on anyone but myself. The only thing I cared about was him never finding me again or recognizing me. Good thing I've lost like 70 pounds since I was 15. But I wanted to know his whereabouts so I would know when to lookout for him. (I live in a very small area.)

  It took me 4 years to get up the nerve, but I finally told my twin sister what happened. She looked him up on Myspace & we pondered over a way to learn his working hours and whereabouts so I could feel safe when he was away on a trip. He drove a truck, so I knew he was away sometimes.

  We talked about it over and over & then created a fake myspace with fake pictures and added him as a friend. After I saw he accepted the request, it took me 2 months to get up the nerve to even log back on the fake myspace with the fake e-mail and fake pictures.

  At first I couldn't bring myself to type and send the douche bag a message, so my lovely twin (she's a damn genious!) did it for me. He clearly had no clue. She just started small chatting & light flirting to ensure he would respond. Then I got the nerve to message myself & ask where he works explaining that I may have met him at a party once. I knew he wouldn't know it was me as he has raped at least 2 other women that I'm 100% sure of. Incase you're wondering, the police in our town could give a shit less whether or not a rapist gets put away. They're too worried about F'ing little girls themselves. (Harsh? No, because I know these men & they'll freely admit it.)

  So to make this drug out story a little shorter, he did tell me that he worked with a major trucking company, but I think he was somewhat suspicious because he never would give me the specifics although I already know the company he works for. It's only 15 min. away.

  I found out quite a bit, but he would not let go of any personal info. I still have the fake myspace, but haven't wanted any more contact with him after I learned his working shifts. That's all I needed or cared to know.

  I never did get any revenge. I have to remind myself that God will do that part. But it felt so good to have that fake account to get info & know the dates when he was out of town that way, I knew I was safe to sleep at night.

  I'm far beyond revenge at this point, but I do still think about getting on that Myspace and making a damn fool out of this guy. Only I'm scared. LOL

  I love the feeling of ME finally being the one who's got control. How does it feel to be screwed over? If I could've somehow gotten him to get personal & admit to the rapes, I'd so have copied & pasted that shit & posted all over the net & our town. I can't lie, I'd feel so good to do that!

 You never thought I could go there huh? Well, it gets worse!

WONDERFUL HOUSEHOLD USES OF TOOTHPASTE

Incase you didn't know, you can use toothpaste for more than just your pearly whites. Heres a few:

1. Cleaning surfaces such as the toilet or tub. It cuts grime loose & it's easy. It also whitens the stained areas!

2. Clean silver, jewelry, faucets, sinks, etc.  Rub the entire surface or jewelry with the toothpaste, let it sit a while (depending how dirty) then rinse with warm water. It will make any silver & diamons shine! If youre using it on the sink or faucets, wash it with sponge or cloth then rinse. You'll be amazed at how great it looks.

3. Pimples. Many people use tooth paste for pimples but for me, it does not seem to make any difference. But you can always give it a try1

4. Burns. This is the best thing Ive found to relieve burns. Im constantly burning myself with my flat iron. Rubbing tooth paste on the entire burn and leaving it for a while will completely stop the burning & help with inflamation. If its a severe burn, consult a physician!