My 100 crisises in 1 day!!

So, my endometriosis & I.B.S has started bothering me again since I got out of surgery so I had an appointment with my ob/gyn again yesterday. He told me that my horrible anxiety is what's causing all the flare ups to happen. I was pretty upset to have to start taking medication yesterday. :(  he put me on pain killers & anxiety meds. The anxiety meds really screw me up badly, to the point of embarrassment & I cant even function. Im hoping I'll get used to them but the painkillers they really seem to be making me feel great & the anxiety meds do take a lot off of me. I feel like a new person. But after about an hour of taking them I can't hold my head up they make me so sleepy I fall asleep but it feels more like I'm falling unconscious! Anyways, that's what's going on with me & thats why I've not been posting much because of surgery and everything going on.

Also, another big worry of mine: Mother's day is coming up. Which is a very important and meaningful holiday to me but I find myself dreading it again this year. Because of losing both of my children I find it hard to have a happy day. It's all I can think about now. This is only my 3rd mother's day without them. It brings back all of the pain. But one thing, since I am/was a mother then lost mine, I see just how much people take for granted what they have. I'm trying to spend a lot of my time trying to make this the best Mother's day for my mother, and maybe it will take my own mother's day off of my mind.

So, I decided to buy my mother a gift, stupid me, couldn't wait any longer and I gave it to her early, so then last week I bought her a book she's been wanting off of ebay. The thing is the seller is not sending the book! He refuses to reply to my messages & he promised to send the book out a week ago! I'm beginning to think he screwed me. So now my mother's day gift probably won't be here. That puts extra stress on.

The next worry of the day: I was just notified that my college classes start this week! Thank God I'm doing them from home (b/c of the health conditions) and I'm stressing about how the hell I'm gonna be able to function while on these crazy meds! L.o.l

Next worry of the day:
I'm in desperate need of a hair trim. My hair cut is really unique most people wouldn't be able to do a cut like mine and make it look good. There are only 2 people that can cut my hair this way. They both work at the same salon. When one is absent I go to the other so usually I switch between the 2 of them each month. Well I called to make my appointment today & was informed that they no longer work there! Both of my stylists quit on me! They didn't even let me know. So I'm having a crisis. lol

IT'S NO WONDER IM HAVING TO BE ON THESE CRAZY MEDS! LOL